Proverbs 31 Project

I had a counseling session with my Pastor last night.  I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve so when I am struggling the weight of the world can be seen by the way I carry myself and speak.  We talked about my marriage, my finances and just life in general.  I have come to realize what it is I really need and what I need to do about it.  

I need to work on me.  

I need to work on my marriage, which is a two way street.

I need to work on trusting God as difficult as it is.  Especially with our finances.  This here is a great struggle for me. 

I need to work on me some more.

I need a space where I can sit down without interruption and spend with the Lord.  I need to set aside time every day to just sit in his presence.  To talk with him and seek him above all else.  Even if it means learning to get up earlier.  Even if its 15 minutes to start.  I need to start my day right. 

I came across something today while looking for bible studies that Dave and I can do together.  It was that moment I realized I need to work on me very much so. Its called Proverbs 31 Project by Melissa Calloway.  Its a 12 month project designed to help women grow emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.  She breaks down Proverbs 31:10-31 into 12 parts.  Each part giving us a challenge.   I read the first chapter on a preview and realized I need this now.

I think this blog will be the perfect way to document my progress.  A way to stay accountable. 

Chapter 1 (30 days)

Proverbs 31:10-12

"Who can find a virtuous and capable wife? She is more precious than rubies.  Her husband can trust her and she will greatly enrich his life.  She brings him good, not harm, all he days of his life"

The first part tells me how I need to see myself.  I am good, pure and intelligent and worth so much more than I could ever imagine.  Why? Because this is how GOD designed me.  I am worth more than I allow myself to think. 

There are two challenges here over the course of the next 30 day.  One of them is that every day for the next month I have to write 10 things I like about myself.  Every day, 10 different things.   This is very hard for me.  Its hard for me to say I like this about myself. Hence the reason I realized I need this project book.   The second challenge I will keep to myself.  It has to do with your other half over the next month and I don't want him knowing what that is. Because its really for me not him.

So, Day 1.

1. I like the color of my eyes
2. I like the natural highlights in my hair
3. I like that I have a willingness to learn new things
4. I like that I have an education behind me
5. I like that others consider me a good girl
6. I like that I am loved by so many
7. I like that others can come to me knowing I will be there
8. I like that I am always on time
9. I like that I am reliable
10. I like that I can cook (for the most part lol)

I won't lie this is only Day 1 and that task wasn't easy.  Over the next month I will have to come up with 300 different things I like about myself. 300!!

Scripture of the day was Psalm 139:14 - I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Fitting since I wear a bracelet everyday with that quote.

I have been back on track with eating properly since yesterday.  New month, new me.  

Here's to a brighter tomorrow!